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Creating from the Heart

 

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Photo by Elke

The sweet smell of pine and fresh ocean air delight my senses as I sit outside on our swing watching the tide come in. It always amazes me how fast it does that. Steadily the little bay (which we affectionately call our bathtub) fills up again changing from greyish brown to different shades of green to a deep emerald on most days. It is enchanting to witness and be part of. I notice how over the course of the last 15 months or so of living here, my relationship to Nature has changed. Slowly I am starting to recognize more and more that I am not separate from Nature, but a part of it. I am Nature! And this experience is not just a knowing in my head but a felt experience with my whole being. There is something so comforting about this, like coming home after a long journey.

Yesterday a dear friend of mine called and we talked at length as we always do about what is currently happening in our lives, what we are learning and discovering and where we are being asked to grow. I love our talks and how she describes her most recent realization: “I want to create my life from my heart!”.

It is such beautiful and powerful realization and statement. It made me reflect on my own life and what I have been able to or allowed myself to create from my heart like this beautiful place where we are currently living for instance.

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Photo by Elke

Not a day goes by when I don’t feel deeply grateful for being here. I am truly living my dream! In fact it is more beautiful than I could have ever imagined for myself.

And then there are still areas in my life where I create from my head, not trusting enough yet to allow myself to create work for instance from my heart.I have tried on and off over the years but I know I was not able to completely trust in my ability to manifest a livelihood that truly makes my heart sing. The old conditioning and self doubt run deep. But as I allow myself to write and take pictures of the beauty around me there is a deep sense of fulfillment and joy. Creativity has been calling me for years and finally I am jumping fully into it, not just dipping my toe in and pulling it back out. Writing makes my heart sing and so is walking or being in Nature, taking it in with all my senses, deeply listening and often trying in vain to capture it’s incredible beauty and mystery. But even just trying makes me so happy…

I also love sharing the beauty of my life with you. I realized something recently on a walk with my dog Frodo when I was contemplating what I like about blogging and what makes it so rewarding. The answer that most resonates with my heart is that it allows me to express who I am creatively and be seen, but mostly it is about connection. I love to connect with people from all over the world. This is what makes my heart sing. What about you? I would love to hear from you, what makes your heart sing?

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Photo by Elke

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Heart Journey

 

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Heart Rock on Hawaii – photo by Elke

I have decided to do something different today. Instead of thinking about an idea for a new blog post and then letting my mind take the lead I close my eyes, put my hand on my heart and tune in, asking my heart  “what should I write about today?” For a moment there is stillness, then I receive the words: “The heart knows!”

As I sit with that in wonder, I return my focus on my heart and feel a joyful response inside, a tingling, an opening. It is a familiar feeling. Over the years my focus has become more and more on my heart and letting it guide me. I remember years ago starting to ask myself “What would love do here?” when I didn’t know how to respond to a situation or I felt stuck. The moment I asked the question I knew that I didn’t want to respond in my usual way anymore, which often led me to more separation and clearly not what I wanted. The answer to the question “What would love do or say now?” was always readily available, but was often met with much resistance. It usually involved me having to do or say something that was hard for me to do and showing my vulnerability. But those times I was able to do that, I was always so glad, that I did. At some point I recognized that I was choosing to be on a path of love. And little signs along the way confirmed I was on the right path for me. These signs are everywhere like in the bottom of my tea cup or finding a perfect heart shape on the inside of the lid when I opened a yoghurt container. I love these delightful surprises.

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Surprise! – photo by Elke

Life has led me to different experiences, different relationships, different places to live. Now looking back I see how all of these experiences have taught me so much about love, about opening my heart, listening to others with compassion and giving and receiving love much more freely and openly. Slowly but surely I learned to love what I had feared or had been so uncomfortable with. As I immersed myself in work with people that I would have previously avoided like people who are homeless, the mentally ill, the ones addicted to drugs, I felt myself change. My heart felt like it was expanding. But really I was just learning to open my heart little by little. Another profound heart opening experience was working with people with severe disabilities. It is such a joy to let go of awkwardness and fear and open up to the kind of  connection that is possible with an open heart.

Yes, my heart has led me to just the right places and people. It showed me where I needed to open my heart and brought me just the right situations to break through fears and conditioning. The more I opened my heart, the more love came into my life and still does. And the most beautiful thing that I learned is that I can trust my heart. It truly does know!

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Seeds of Love – photo by Elke