As I watch the last days of Winter dance and intermingle with the first days of Spring, showing me once again that life doesn’t happen in a straight line, nor can it be predicted or controlled, my mind has a hard time to surrender to “what is” at times. Whereas another part of me is glad, that this is so, for it allows the experience of awe and wonder, keeping us connected to the great mystery of life.
Witnessing the great wheel turning and seasons changing, I open myself to whatever the new day might bring: perhaps another round of snow, or sunshine and the sweet fragrance of Spring, that makes me long to be outside and receive it with every cell of my body, or even hail or thunder announcing both an ending and a new beginning.
With winter ending in this part of the world, I notice many changes and awakenings around me as well as inside of me. It has been a long journey, that felt a lot like having been deep under water, only coming up for a breath of air here and there. Today as the sun is warming my skin and the birds are singing ever so sweetly, I experience a feeling of lightness, reminding me of what it feels like to float on the surface of the water without any resistance, allowing the current to carry me gently to an unknown destination.
The last six months have been intense, expanding, beautiful and hard. Letting go of a partnership is a deep process with many doubts, fears and old patterns, all rising to the surface at once, yet giving the opportunity to meet them in a new way, as well as allowing myself to take a deep honest look at myself, the relationship and what is prompting the letting go. Sitting with one another in the love, the pain and the grief, witnessing each other in this process, so unique and different, yet shared with such sincerity.
Today I feel the wheel of life shifting not only the season, but my life into something new. I have no idea of what it will look like. Lying awake in the early morning hours, listening to first stirring of the day, wondering where life might take me and hoping to find that special cottage or cabin, my own little nest in Nature somewhere on this island, that feels right for me, where I once again can immerse myself in the work that I love so much: Vibrational Alignment sessions, transformational coaching, writing, blogging and creating to my heart’s content.
Feeling the deepest gratitude for the powerful and rich experience of coming together five years ago, following our dream here to Cortes and now shifting into a new way of relating, as we cut the cord and untethered under the Libra Blue Moon, where we offered this relationship to the fire, acknowledging the support we have given each other through the many emotional waves that letting go have stirred up in us on this journey, meeting the deep call of growth. Love has been our guide and has brought us to this point.
Breathing into this turning of the wheel, I allow myself to inhale deeply, allowing the gift of life all the way in, where it expands my belly, my chest, my awareness, before releasing it slowly, channeling it through my heart deliberately, then through my throat and out my nostrils. With each deep breath in and out, I feel the space in my heart expand and a softness in me welcoming this new day and season, holding onto trust that all will be well. Writing this, I remember the dolphins attending our ceremony around the Solar Eclipse, not only supporting us on this journey of untethering, but raising the vibration so high, and that there could only be joy.
Right now I also feel deep joy in writing and sharing with you once again. It has been a while since this urge to communicate and share got strong enough to break through, whatever resistance or process I was in. Yet in this long pause I have also learned to trust deeper in the Muse to guide me and show me to give room for this inner turning that is going on, much like the seeds in the grounds preparing for the right moment to break through the earth into the light.
And for my dear friends who haven’t heard from me in a while, please forgive me! I needed to give myself this time and space to fully immerse myself and honour the deep process of letting go of my relationship and the expansion that was being asked of me.
As I looked into my now former partner’s eyes today, I saw the same lightness also reflected in his eyes and I have never seen him more radiant.
I am so very grateful to know and see you and be known and seen by you. To a new way of “relating”! And to Love!
Daily Prompt: Radiant
A powerful sharing of your current journey – thank you – hope I will be that strong when I am next called to leave familiar and go forth. Your images are all gorgeous, but the fire closeup is especially compelling. Transformation, beauty, warmth … a curtain of sorts, obscuring for the present what will come.
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Love your description of a curtain obscuring in this moment what will come…so often my mind wants to figure it all out and then have to surrender to the not knowing over and over again. Thanks for your beautiful comment, Jazz!
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Oh Elke… I’d say soooooo sad
But oh…there’s too much beauty in your writing, in your heart, in your essence.
I always am thrilled with your writing expression elke… but this one in particular in how you hold the letting go.
There’s a maturity in your expression and equal pause..the felt sense in everything…
I am there..
And of course it’s Cortes..
You will thrive…
I wish you could stay in my lil old cabin on Redlands but idk if it’s standing still and rustic.
I’m holding your heart in my hands tonite… both of you…and smiling at the LOVE and let LOVE
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Thank you so much for your beautiful response! It so warms my heart and hope one of these days we connect again. Much love!!!
Beautiiful writing and pictures. So it is over. May you both find happiness what you do not even yet know is your future. Love you both. Tell Victor to call on me if he’s in the area.
Drawing Back The Curtain Sent: April 2, 2018 5:36 PM To: firstname.lastname@example.org Subject: [New post] The Turning Of The Wheel
drawingbackthecurtain posted: ” As I watch the last days of Winter dance and intermingle with the first days of Spring, showing me once again that life doesn’t happen in a straight line, nor can it be predicted or controlled, my mind has a hard time to surrender to “what is” at times.”
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In my opinion, you do not have to ask for forgiveness, for you are the only one who knows what is the best for you. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and beautiful pictures!