I am sitting out on the bluff on this grey stormy day. The wind is impatiently turning my pages and at the same time cooling me as another hot flash spreads through my body to every cell, igniting something I have no name for.
Gentle raindrops awaken me to the need for creative expression and watering the dry spell of my inner landscape. All the while a seagull glides by and circles over me again and again, probably wondering what I am doing here on this wintery day.
My hot nettle tea is cooling in the thermos dotted with stars, that a dear sister gifted me on her visit in the summer. Where did the time go? It seemed not so long ago that we were lying here on this bluff in the hot sun after swimming in the cool waters sharing with each other those things that matter most in life. The raindrops remind me of her gentle nature and generous heart.
I felt called to the bluff today to write outside, letting Mother Earth speak while I listen carefully. Something new yet ancient is there on the edge of awareness. I can feel it in the movement of the wind and hear it in the waves that are crashing against the shoreline.
The seagull has settled not far from me on the little island near the bluff. It feels like we are the only ones here on this stormy day and just as I put these words on paper a little duck appears out of nowhere between the island and the bluff swimming by and is joined by a mate that is paddling around the island from the other side. I didn’t see Raven coming. But he is loudly announcing his arrival or perhaps the beginning of our meeting. He has much to say.
And yes, we are all listening!
Perhaps he called on the seal who silently emerges from the depth of the ocean to join our gathering. I am starting to wonder what this is all about as the wind pushes and pulls on the pages. I seem to be the one taking notes for this meeting.
I listen to the wind and watch the movement of the waves. I become aware of the ease of my breath coming in and going out. The inhaled air travels down deeply, spreading far and wide, just as the fire of the hot flash did before, creating more space inside of me. In this spaciousness I sense a deep surrendering to what is taking place here.
As the wind touches my face gently, I open to receive the love that is present in every raindrop, every wave, in the trees bending, gently giving movement to the wind’s urging. I sense the love in the nettle tea as I take a sip, offering it’s nourishment to my body and feel the rock’s solid support under me. Raven, duck, seagull and seal are all in agreement: Even though life is constantly shifting and changing, love is always present.
My hand glides over the page and words spread across each line in effortless motion, as I trust what will come, allowing myself to be the scribe.
Suddenly I look up from my page just in time to watch the ducks dive under and disappear in the moving sea while the seagull lifts effortlessly into the air. Seal is already gone and I wonder if the meeting is over. Raven answers: Yes, the meeting is adjourned!
I gather my things: the tea, pen, journal and the little pillow that saved me from getting wet while sitting on the rock and I make my way home to feed the fire and let Frodo (my dear old dog) know that all is well despite appearances.
~Photos by Dancing Wolf