The sweet smell of pine and fresh ocean air delight my senses as I sit outside on our swing watching the tide come in. It always amazes me how fast it does that. Steadily the little bay (which we affectionately call our bathtub) fills up again changing from greyish brown to different shades of green to a deep emerald on most days. It is enchanting to witness and be part of. I notice how over the course of the last 15 months or so of living here, my relationship to Nature has changed. Slowly I am starting to recognize more and more that I am not separate from Nature, but a part of it. I am Nature! And this experience is not just a knowing in my head but a felt experience with my whole being. There is something so comforting about this, like coming home after a long journey.
Yesterday a dear friend of mine called and we talked at length as we always do about what is currently happening in our lives, what we are learning and discovering and where we are being asked to grow. I love our talks and how she describes her most recent realization: “I want to create my life from my heart!”.
It is such beautiful and powerful realization and statement. It made me reflect on my own life and what I have been able to or allowed myself to create from my heart like this beautiful place where we are currently living for instance.
Not a day goes by when I don’t feel deeply grateful for being here. I am truly living my dream! In fact it is more beautiful than I could have ever imagined for myself.
And then there are still areas in my life where I create from my head, not trusting enough yet to allow myself to create work for instance from my heart.I have tried on and off over the years but I know I was not able to completely trust in my ability to manifest a livelihood that truly makes my heart sing. The old conditioning and self doubt run deep. But as I allow myself to write and take pictures of the beauty around me there is a deep sense of fulfillment and joy. Creativity has been calling me for years and finally I am jumping fully into it, not just dipping my toe in and pulling it back out. Writing makes my heart sing and so is walking or being in Nature, taking it in with all my senses, deeply listening and often trying in vain to capture it’s incredible beauty and mystery. But even just trying makes me so happy…
I also love sharing the beauty of my life with you. I realized something recently on a walk with my dog Frodo when I was contemplating what I like about blogging and what makes it so rewarding. The answer that most resonates with my heart is that it allows me to express who I am creatively and be seen, but mostly it is about connection. I love to connect with people from all over the world. This is what makes my heart sing. What about you? I would love to hear from you, what makes your heart sing?